Week 9: Ketogenic Diet Experiment for Mental Health

This week has been crap! But seriously, I have had 4 cheat meals, and none of them were really planned. Most of them were related to my church calling. I volunteer with young women ages 16-18. They are so much fun and I love the calling. However, our church culture is centered around food. So many times we have treats. It is a bonding thing that extends to our entire American culture.

I, however, have gained a couple pounds this week. I broke 120! I know that is many people’s goal to get down to or goal to lose, but I’m still going to go at least to 125 maybe even 135. It is a healthy weight for me. Also, I can tell that my tummy is more toned. This tells me that hopefully I have lost fat and gained muscle.

My hubby didn’t lose this week but basically maintained. He isn’t sleeping well. He is in a lot of pain as he has kidney stones. Hopefully, they can pass and he can start getting better sleep again. He loses a lot more when he sleeps the full amount and regular hours.

Keto is going well, but we could both do better. Him with sleep, and me with staying on plan a little better.

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On another note, I have been writing up a storm. I finished my first romance novel, and I started on my second one. I am editing the first and working with my incredible cover designer. She is also helping me with a couple other projects including getting my cover done for my first book for print.

I’m going to include a few reviews on the back cover as well as a short synopsis. Then it will be available for print. I know some people want that option as it is easier to share and give as a gift as well as reference and take notes in for the future.

I’m also considering creating a companion workbook but it’s not exciting me right now. I’m trying to ride my energy and put it in the most productive places.

Unfortunately, that is something you learn to do with the hypomania as a bipolar person.

I’m working hard though to work during the depression as well. I watched a YouTube video on just that. A family member shared it with me. I love that she was kind enough to read my book and knows what to recommend to me. I loved it.

Until next week, remember to follow me on Instagram @balancingmybipolar for recipes and to follow my keto journey daily.

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Week 8: Ketogenic Diet Experiment

We both forgot to do an official weigh in today so I will update tomorrow. I did one midday though and I think I’m seeing progress.

I finished my second book last night. I have decided to write fiction for now. Mainly clean contemporary Christian romance novels.

It is so much more fun to write to be honest. My memoir book Balancing Your Bipolar was somehow heart wrenching and raw and difficult and it’s still hard for me to market and share. This book though is the type of book that I love to read myself. I’m hoping that will make it easier to market and share.

My garden is coming along beautifully and I’m so pleased. Back to Eden gardening makes the garden look so pretty. I love it and I’m excited for summer to harvest.

I have been busy with many things some of which I will share more of once they are ready. I so enjoy writing and learning all about everything that goes with it.

Week 7: Ketogenic Diet Experiment for Bipolar

Success!!!

This week I gained 1.6 lbs so .6 over what I lost last week. And hubby lost 1.8 lbs!!!!

So nice when it clicks and you’re getting things right.

One day last week I ate a small slice of ice cream cake and went over my carbs by a lot. I was crazy thirsty after and probably doubled my water for the day. I didn’t feel like I went out of ketosis. I wonder if the water flushed excess carbs so when I switched to carb burning it wasn’t for long or at all. I’m not a scientist so if anyone knows more please enlighten me in the comments.

My husband bought me a new Chromebook for my birthday!!! I’m so excited to use it to write each day and for blogging. Mine the keyboard was broken so I had to plug one in and it felt more like a desktop. It was frustrating to bring places.

I am so curious about this experiment. Either way it’s good I’m off sugar since that isn’t good for anyone but especially bipolar people. But how will I know if it is working or not? Any suggestions are much appreciated.

Our renter is fully moved in and our deck is painted.

I love how it turned out. Our backyard is becoming my own Oasis little by little. .

Also I have been walking more. I was walking once a week but I was sore every time. I decided I will walk 6 days a week if I can to build up endurance. I have a couple of friends who will join me which is way more fun. My girls come home tired and my baby is right ready for bed.

Hubby has been working out every night and is up to 4 pull ups. He is so strong for his weight. I’m always impressed. He also does push-ups and dips and l sits.

Until next week!

I post daily on Instagram you can find me at @balancingmybipolar

Week 6: Ketogenic diet for Mental Health

Our progress was crap this week. Hubby maintained. I lost a pound :(.

It makes sense though. We have been sleeping horribly and working our butts off. Food has come third and needs to be moved up on the list again.

On the plus side all that hard work produced what I think are amazing results in our rental apartment. It looks so good. But you don’t have to take my word for it. Here are the before and after videos ;).

Before: Before Remodel Rental

After: After Remodel Rental

I am so impressed with the apartment. We got it rented today! New tenant signed the rental agreement and paid part of the money. She will have more tomorrow and be moving in then. So exciting to be landlords. It’s something we always wanted to do.

Ideally we would like to have multiple rental properties. Mostly duplexes so that we can get the best rates and live in one side and then rent the other. One day hopefully that will be a reality. It’s also a way to try out living in other areas and be able to rent and move elsewhere if we don’t like it.

We procrastinated the last minute steps pretty badly. We ended up painting and cleaning and installing about 20 last minute things this whole weekend. Plus carpet cleaning twice because my toddler spilled paint when we were basically done. Oh the horror!

I have a few photos of cleaning before and afters. I used a Norwex Envirocloth and marble cleaning powder to do all my cleaning. It was A-mazing. So many things that would have taken forever or never come off at all.

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Isn’t it pretty! It isn’t perfect, but oh so much better and that tub is literally gleaming. So many things I swear have never been so clean haha. The walls were gross. I now need to go back to my side of the house and clean it top to bottom. Slowly but surely. We also want to use the extra paint to do our living room and dining room in the same blue gray. It’s so pretty. I want it!

Well it’s been a crazy busy week but we will keep trucking on. If you have some fun keto wins I would love to hear about it. Especially if they have to do with mental illness. I would love to hear your experiences and/or questions.

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Week 5: Ketogenic diet experiment

Progress!!!!

Hubby lost 3.2 lbs this week. Woohoo! He cut down a bit on portions and snacks but it just worked this week. He also worked out a bit because he couldn’t sleep 😂😂.

I gained almost 2 lbs! Yes we are both moving in the right direction. Hooray.

We did a few less recipes this week. I enjoyed clearing out the fridge and the break.

I have now reached 25,000 words written on my second book. I think another 10-15k and I may be ready to start editing and writing book 2. I’m trying to get to where I’m publishing a book a month. I know it can be done because I know an author who does it and does it well.

Keto has been so amazing. I love that I can have dessert and it’s good for me. Good fats. I love how many vegetables I’m eating. And since switching to me cooking for my husband he has had way fewer cravings and issues like that. What a miracle!

I feel full and I love making progress with weight gain. Plus I don’t have to eat as much because it’s all full of fat. So nice for those of us who struggle to gain weight.

We made pizza with fathead dough yesterday. It was very good. I rolled out the dough between two parchment paper sheets and precooked the crust. You could pick it up and eat it like regular pizza. And my husband said it was the best I had made. Haha he almost always says that. I’m sure I get better at cooking but he is also an amazing husband.

My goal for this summer is to figure out keto freezer meals and Crock-Pot meals. I know I will need them when I get depressed.

Here’s to another week and continuing to try to be more active.

Week 3: keto experiment

So…I’m gaining. That is a good sign. It’s slow but I’m no longer losing weight. So progress!!

My husband on the other hand is down about 12 lbs. It seems so much easier for him to stick to his goals with me being the one to mainly be in control of food. I hope it continues to make things easier on him and he can be successful this year and reach his goals.

Ok so another week has gone by with no exercise besides my weekly walk with a friend. It’s a good walk, but I want to start my body weight fitness.

So I’m committing to all of you. I will do it tomorrow and Thursday and Saturday. So 3x by next blog post. We will see how it goes fingers crossed and more importantly. I will take action. It’s happening.

Food is going well for me. If you’re following on Instagram @balancingmybipolar or Facebook or Twitter. I have had many amazing recipes.

One of my favorites was the stuffed mini peppers. The sweet peppers with the creamy cheesy bacon was a delicious combo I ate 3 times. Yum.

Here’s to more recipes this week and clearing out my full fridge :D.

Week 1: experimental ketogenic diet

Alright so it’s been one week. I have dropped water weight which is always a good sign that ketosis is taking place. I went down from 118 to 114.4. I’m back up now to 116.2.

As you can see in the picture. That is encouraging to me and I will keep trying to up my calories. The goal is at least 2000 calories and more when I’m working out. Probably around 2250. It is just so hard for me to eat that much.

I know that is insane for the majority of people and so hard to understand. I have a very strong fullness trigger. So much so that if I barely overeat I want to throw up and get sick. Not pleasant so I have learned to avoid getting there and it has kept me at a healthy weight. The problem comes when I want to be stronger and hold more muscle I have to work my butt off.

So I will be starting Fitloop Bodyweight fitness routine. As soon as I’m feeling well enough. Hopefully this week or next. I will also up my calories.

I have enjoyed some new recipes this week. You can find most of them on Instagram as I post there daily at @balancingmybipolar. I also post my macros for the day.

It worked well to do meals for my hubby and just like the first time I tried keto before my last pregnancy it was much easier than I thought it would be. I have cooked for my husband for so many years that it isn’t too bad. My biggest problem is like with anything finding something that sounds good.

Pretty School and Other Mom Guilt

This past week, my oldest who is 7, Taylia, dressed up Addison in one of her uniforms. Complete with tucked in shirt, shoes, panda backpack, snacks, and hair done.

Oh the sass!

She looked so stinking cute. But Taylia had her thinking that she could go with her to school. I told them they wouldn’t let her on and when Taylia left she was super upset and crying.


Oh the sass!

She looked so stinking cute. But Taylia had her thinking that she could go with her to school. I told them they wouldn’t let her on and when Taylia left she was super upset and crying.

She finally came over to me and I said I’m sorry you can’t go until next year. She said but Bria (a girl from primary) goes to “pretty school.” She meant pre School and I talked to her mom today and apparently she doesn’t go. But still so funny.

My oldest has been saying for months that I need to send Addy to preschool or homeschool. That she needs to know her letters etc. She keeps acting like she is behind because she doesn’t know as much as her 3 years older self.

This piles on the mom guilt when I’m depressed which ends up being most of the school year let’s be honest. This year it was from about November to a week or so ago. So at least half the school year.

I often have guilt when I need a little screen time babysitting (or a lot).

When I don’t teach or have cute crafts because they make a mess or I can’t handle more than meals (frozen pizza) and moving from the bed to the couch.

Honestly it wasnt normally that bad this year. Things went really well as far as productivity levels. But it has been in the past.

I have been working really hard to let go of the idea that I have to be entertaining my children 24/7 to be a successful parent. I’m realizing sometimes it’s the opposite. They need to feel bored occasionally and they need to play outside (our goal right now is an hour a day). They need to read and be creative and make a mess.

It has been freeing to me to let myself take a nap if I need it and let my 3 yr old play with Daddy working nearby. I’m so much happier the rest of the time for it and that is what is amazing about self care. True self care not this crap that is just selfish, but the whole put on your own oxygen mask first, fill your vessel stuff. True self care makes you better and more able to give.

So heres to letting go of mom guilt and hoping one day they invent “pretty school”.

Done is better than perfect!

My house is looking so much better!

I found a blog called A slob comes clean a few months ago now and I love it! I have now bought both her books and listen to her podcasts almost daily while I’m cleaning or working in the yard. So much of what she said clicked and it has helped my home a ton. Remember the post about my Kitchen and the disaster state it was in? This blog and the books have helped me stay out of disaster state for months now and it feels amazing!

I have decluttered:

some which helps and I also started the weekly tasks this week. So as to avoid getting overwhelmed I decided on Tuesday to just do one bathroom rather than all 3. I did the one we use the most and the one I had already decluttered the most. I then worked on another day decluttering my master bathroom and I will go from there. I figured if I did them all and burnt out then I would go months again without clean bathrooms. Where as if I do one and do another next week and wipe down the first and then another and wipe down the others by week 4 it should be easier and way better.

So far so good, as I ran errands Wednesday, and Thursday I mopped my kitchen and attached laundry room floor. It was bad this week and took longer but hopefully next week I make it to the dining room and it’s easier.

Tomorrow I will be vacuuming which has been done more recently and with a 5 min pick up shouldn’t be hard.

The laundry is going well too. Although I’m struggling with putting it away I’m still excited with how much easier Monday laundry days have been in general.

Now to the point that sparked my desire to write this post. I don’t know what to write on my blog but I want to blog. I know to some degree I need to just get started and try. I need to practice and do, to get over my fears and find out what I don’t know that I don’t know. Where I need to learn and stretch and grow. Also what my audience wants and what I want the blog to be too. Who my people are? Who my tribe is? What my passion is around balancing my bipolar?

I think some of that is just being honest. Honestly maybe this post is the place to start. Maybe recording my thoughts on my mental state through depression. My frustrations with not being able to be social and donate my time by volunteering and doing it all. My frustrations with dinner being hard and cleaning being hard and showering more than once a week being hard and doing anything. My worries for my kids and what they need me to be. Letting go of some of that guilt too. Improving one step at a time. Acknowledging myself and giving myself some credit that my book is actually helping some people. Reading it again and facing the reality that it could be better and my fears and hypomania may have rushed it. But realizing that I made a decision to do that and it’s okay.

This is what I’m feeling right now. Unfiltered maybe crappy, definitely less than perfect but “done is better than perfect” and it’s real and it’s what is reality right now, not my made up dream in my head.